For those that know me well, you know I can be head strong and stubborn. If I get an idea in my head, it's tough to change my mind. For years I carried a story that I was so "stuck on".
I was angry with my own struggles with teaching, seemingly living paycheck to paycheck each month and always holding off on vacations because it "just wasn't in the cards". My life seemed out of my control.
I blamed the hardships on "the system", how it's broken and how it's messing it up for me. Poor me. Working hard, not valued, etc, etc, and on and on. Tears shed, anger lashed out, tension in relationships, feelings of not being good enough, smart enough or the pain of asking for financial help seemingly at every turn.
But here's the thing: Although the feelings were real, my perception was based on a reality that I had created. I was just waiting for something to save me--someone, the Universe handing me something else...whatever it was, I believed the changes would be without my own engineering of it's trajectory.
Put simply -- I was waiting to be saved. The princess in the tower waiting for her prince.
I didn't believe it was all up to me.
I didn't believe I had the power.
I didn't believe I had the right to fully expand into my gifts, the life I dreamed of.
And then something shifted.
I just got sick of this story! I can pinpoint the moment (I'll save that for another post) and it was raw, real and unforgettable.
It was this feeling that there is no where else to turn but into myself and face that version of myself that believed those stories.
It was time to take back my power and to break down that princess tower I was holding myself hostage in.
It was hard. I cried, I was scared.
But I was also lighter, hopeful and excited.
There are still tough days, I still cry, I still worry from time to time, but I don't feel dread or anger the same way.
My life feels lighter. I walk with a different connection to my purpose. I am calmer and easier on myself. I don't feel like I am betraying my truth.
And, most important, I believe this is for anyone. I believe this is for you. I know it with every ounce of my being.
I've got a Spring Cleanse coming up, so if you're curious how to step into spring with a lighter load, check it out.
With massive love and light
Leanna Jane Lewis
I'm just goin' to toss them here, just to plant some thought seeds for you. I'll leave out the details for each of them, since I'll post those in the next blog. For now, I just want to share the basics.
Anchoring into the Now:
The power of meeting yourself in the present to create the change you want. Mindfulness, meditation and breath work.
Creating a safe path through our pains:
Creating what you want by healing what you no longer need. Speaking your truth, letting go of old stories.
Connecting to our Purpose:
Discovering your gifts, empowering your soul,
healing doubt and fear
Creating Goals that Fuel our Purpose:
Creating goals that “stick” because they are connected to your purpose and your natural gifts.
Sometimes sh*t happens
"Life is happening FOR us, not TO us"I am writing this as my home is literally being torn apart.
We knew something was wrong. We could sense it, smell it, feel it as a quiet voice getting louder...
"You can't keep imaging me away..so deal with me, fix me, break me down and put me back together."
We've decided, now is the time. Sure, it's winter here, cold, hard to deal with no running water, access to a toilet, we don't have the money for this right now---all the things. But it's now a non-negotiable. The choice was easy.
Maybe you know what I mean. Maybe you've gotten to a point where you can't ignore what's not working anymore and change just HAS to happen. We all hit our metephoric breaking points so that we can overhaul and rebuild. At some point, the desire is greater than the fear of change.
If you're ready to stop setting your own desires aside and to rebuild something in your life--- your relationships, your career, your inner desire to grow away from your stress triggers, whatever it is-- I promise you it won't always be a clean sweep, but it WILL feel lighter, cleaner and safer (in my case!), and it will start a series of other events that continue to lead you on your journey.
Ladies, sometimes we have to surrender to the breakdown to have the breakthrough. We need to allow ourselves to hit that place of "breakdown" before we can actually see how we can be put back together.
P.S I have two more 1:1 coaching spots left, so let's talk if you are really ready to see how we could do some beautiful inner renovations for you. I'll slot you into my calendar so we can have a free chat and support session. You never know what is possible if you don't ask. (*Book the Support Session-30mins)
Here's to a BRAND NEW home for me and amazing possibility for you.
Massive LOVE and LIGHT!
Everywhere we go, there we are. #TRUTH
And what's more, when we dig deep within ourselves we see more opportunity for growth, change, inner shifts of perspective. We start to realize that we are the ones coming to save us. We are the ones throwing the lifeline down to our soul and spirit. It's up to us.
That realization takes bravery.
But, I also know that it takes MASSIVE trust and bravery to just keep going when it gets hard.
Because it will. Because it does.
When it gets hard, its because we are often faced with parts of ourselves that we don't usually have to see--they might be parts we are ashamed of, or thought we had tucked away neatly.
The true bravery isn't just taking the first deep dive, its the willingness to keep diving and jumping in, EVEN WHEN
-we don't know how deep it is
-we don't know how it will feel
-we don't know when it will end and when we can get out
-we don't know where our life preserver is if we need it
True bravery is sinking deep into this unbreakable trust between the self and universe. It's that trust that reminds us, everything will be okay. Everything will work out. Everything is happening and unfolding just the way it's meant to be.
And if you can just keep showing up everyday, even when it's hard--your brave soul will take you places you may not have dreamed of.
You've got this, my love.
You've got it deep in your soul.
You're strong, radiant and brilliant in your own right--no less than the sun, the moon, the stars. You have a right to be here, to be brave and to own and share your gifts with the world.