For all my sisters out there who doubt if it's okay to fully (and I mean FULLY) step into your own gifts, your dreams, your desires... If you wonder whether you're "doing it right" or if it's really "meant to be..." I want to share a little story. Curl up, and take a cozy seat in the love chair (or hit "save" in the top right for later)
I started teaching children in elementary school because at that time I believed it was a gift I had and I wanted to help. In some way, I wanted to be part of the healing and nurturing of those early years. It was a calling that went deep.
Flashback to University. I majored in Aboriginal Studies. I learned so many beautiful teachings, and some really hard ones that hurt my heart in ways I don't have words for. The reality of our muddy history ran deep in my bones. So deep, I feel like it's why I got really sick during my studies (Rheumatoid Arthritis was the name of that game). I felt like I had to carry the weight of that pain as though it might help. (Turns out it doesn't work that way).
I took on the pain of that story, the European attempted genocide, and made sure I would not step foot in that story come hell or hight water. I stood firm that the best way to move forward was to just mind my own business and stay out of it. I wasn't "equipped" to help or to be part of the healing--hell, my own bloodline was part of the problem. My own limiting belief was that I wasn't 'made for the job' to be part of the reconciliation process. "White people just keep f*cking it up, so I'm not going to be part of that".
This is a worthiness wound.
In so many ways I love hard on that old me, that girl who just wanted to do what she thought was 'the right thing' and just bow out.
Until it came time to get a teaching job. I just wanted to teach children love, compassion, justice, and how to be a good person in this world. Everyone told me to work up north, go to a community and teach.
F*ck that was my mindset. (I'm really stubborn, if you know me at all...lol) I was boldly a hell-no.
Until it hit me. Until I sat alone and connected with those feelings honestly.
I started to realise a hard truth.
If I didn't step up, anyone would. Anyone else would take that role on and I knew deep in my heart I felt so connected to that work. It was only my mindset of resistance, the belief I wasn't worthy of it. I had embodied the European sh*tstorm of a story so deep, the 'white guilt' became the leading role. How sad. How sad, because my deep HUMAN desire for teaching compassion, love and justice was being tossed away.
So I applied. And I got the job. And I taught love as best I could. I wasn't perfect. I lost my patience, I was challenged on many levels, not all the parents liked me, and I didn't build deep bonds with every single child. But I loved them all. Deeply. Every single one.
If you hold yourself back because you believe you're not deserving, or your own heart isn't big enough or good enough, that you're not 'right for the job'...the truth is, you leave a wide open gap for someone else to step into the role. And you've been designed for it--what's lights your heart up, what connects you to the deepest parts of your authentic truth--babes, that's your sacred RESPONSIBILITY. It's what you came here to do.
Eventually, working within a system felt far too restrictive. I started to embrace self-love and self-worth on a completely "next level" space. I knew I would always be struggling paycheck to paycheck and I had spent years working hard and always being the friend who couldn't "afford it".
And so that story started to change too...And #Truth... if I don't claim that space of abundance now, it's a gaping hole that I will feel every day. Abundance isn't just about money for me. It's about freedom of choice and the ability to spend freely and openly wherever I choose. I can give more, share more and rise within on a whole new level.
Don't give your spot up to someone else.
Take it. Your heart knows this so deeply. So trust that truth and that knowingness. You've been perfectly designed for your desires and dreams.
Ego: You're too emotional. You're crying a lot these days
Self: Go easy, it's been a tough two months.
Ego: You're not focused enough. Scrolling too much, distracting yourself.
Self: When you want to get something done, you do. You always have. Busy isn't better.
Ego: Yeah, but it's going to take some work to keep the business going, so get it together
Self: When I flow, my business flows. The last client just came to me. Just let things be what they are. The "work" always gets done--relax
Ego: Well, I sure hope so, because this has been going on for a long time.
Self: The sun has been shining for a long time, the moon has been waxing and waning for a long time--but, my dear, this beautiful self has been slowing down for a heartbeat. Let time go
Ego: Oh, okay, good point. I think I get it now (until next time I come calling)
Self: I love you.
Ego: Thankyou. I'm just trying to keep you safe.
Self: I know.
Just in case you thought you were the only one who runs this script. XO
I love you.
Learning to tame and calm the ego is part of our healing.
Making peace with our thoughts, the rabbit holes we can go down, the fears we feel. All of these are magical portals to facing the healing head on.
And we don't have to be alone on this journey.
We can "fast-track" it just by showing up together.
Being is a space that teaches us, that guides us, that mentors our hearts and souls to rise above the fears, the doubts, the worries.
We are BIGGER than our struggles.
TOGETHER we RISE, sisters! Together we rise.
Join us this fall for a powerful and sacred space.
Hop on the waitlist
Can't wait to see you. XO
There was a time (not too long ago) I thought the term, "lightworkers" was total bullsh*t. It just DIDN'T resonate with me.
Who are these people?
What the hell is lightworking?
How is this even a career?
You just don't know what you don't know. And it was my limited beliefs that were holding me back. I was unwilling (not unable--two very different things!) to see possibility.
The possibility that:
I could make money just showing up in my light.
Believing that my positive energy can pay my bills.
Seeing the potentiality of how teaching others to own and shine their light could actually be a career path.
I had my own blocks. And I was holding onto them pretty tightly.
I was hiding in my own victim story.
I was wallowing.
I was unwilling to open and become what my higher self (the one without ego) knew was deep within.
But I hit a point. That point where you know you can't go back.
I started to feel (in more way than I have words for) the aching pull to acknowledge my self-worth. My right to be here and to shine my light. My right to stop accepting less than what I was meant for.
For me, this meant leaving teaching.
The pay wasn't enough.
I could barely pay the bills, save, invest and buy the things I wanted.
I started to see money as an energetic exchange.
I stopped believing that I had to sacrifice basic needs (like feeling valued).
I started to see the best thing that happened to me was the thing that was never coming--a pay raise in teaching.
I decided if I was putting so much energy into something that WASN'T working, I might as well put into something that might work.
It was that simple.
But deep down I knew it would work.
Deep down I decided it would work.
At some point we need to decide that letting go of what is holding us back is easier than holding so tightly to the fear that feeds it.
You are no less than the sun, the stars and the moon.
You have a right to be here.
You have a right to shine.
Claim it, babes!
Connect with me more @ Leanna Jane YOGA
So, we're all just human. We're going around doing our human moments. Perfectly imperfect. And if we can drop this story that somehow we're not okay when we cry, or that there's something deeply wrong or broken about us when we do, we get to actually enjoy ourselves just a little bit more.
I was talking about being in the flow today in my FBGroup.
I didn't plan my talk. I didn't know it was coming, but I was talking about how we need to just starting speaking our truth to free ourselves. And, naturally...well
I cried. Because if you know me, you know I wear my heart on my sleeve and my truth is my badge of honour.
And we can still be in the flow and still feel unsteady on our feet. In fact that's what the flow is about. It's about being SUPER real. Shedding our masks, and revealing who we really are.
Because that's where the magic begins.
I help clients go from the muddle of dreams+desires in their heads into massive action that changes their lives. This means there are tears. Because we are releasing our old selves, our old stories, programming that just doesn't serve us anymore.
So release and cry. Let it all out. Get messy and real.
That's when the inner shifts happen.
We'll be covering all of this in my last sisterhood before the craze of summer begins. Curious what this is about? Check it, babes.
With dried eyes now and an open and free heart,
You know that high you get from a super, freakin’ amazing day?
Like ALL-THE-THINGS are lining up, it’s perfect.
Nothing can bring you down.
You’re on fire.
Getting sh*t done!
Making it happen and totally on your game!
And then-- #BAM!
Something’s feelin’ off.
Unease creeping in.
Something triggered you and suddenly you feel like it’s all unraveling.
Fear of failing.
Fear you’re alone in it all.
Or that it won’t work
Doubt in yourself, your ideas, your plans, seemingly at every turn.
Not sure if you’re ready, able, willing to keep going.
And then we find ourselves:
→ playing that old subconscious script and beating ourselves up
→ wondering what is wrong with us
→ telling ourselves to “get over it”, or think happy thoughts
I want to remind you that this is not only normal, but just part of the process of growing.
It’s what happens when we start to get serious about changing our mindset, our perspectives, our habits--all the things. We come up against ourselves.
The road to authentic change and growth is paved with bumps and bruises along the way.
But this is the good part--because it’s really when things are truly changing.
It’s not the stuff that comes up that’s going to get us down, it’s 100% how we choose to move through it.
When we gather the tools needed to bust through our own shells, MAGIC, baby, MAGIC!!!
And I, 150%, believe we are all here to grow, to expand and to share our unique gifts with the world.
So, don’t let your mind chatter stop you.
It’s there to keep you going, one foot in front of the other.
But we won’t know what to change until we can learn to sit quietly with the self and listen to what it’s telling us.
So let’s get deeply connected to the now, the present moment, to fully embrace this space so that we can release what we are aching to let go of. Because this is when the most amazing doors will open.
When yoga came to me almost 20 years ago I resisted. I pushed it away. It was too slow, and I got bored. My body couldn't keep up with my mind--which was too fast, spinning in thought. I just "didn't get it".
But what you resist will persist.
And so, yoga kept coming back into my life one way or another. When I struggled with it the most, that's when it became my healer. Somehow I passed this threshold and surrendered to finally going on the journey within that yoga inevitably takes you on.
And so now, it's my saving grace, my cornerstone of calm, ease and joy.
Yoga has never let me down. Ever.
It has never judged me.
It has never abandoned me.
It has held me through pain and brought me back to life when I was certain it would only be darkness.
And it was never just the poses, the movement.
It was everything underneath that builds the foundation of this ancient system.
If you're willing to listen, it speaks.
It tells you all that you need is within.
The biggest resistance people have with yoga is this idea they are not physically "ready" or "able" to do it. But this is the best time to explore it. This is where you can push your own mindset, your own habit of thought and start to fully expand out.
This is your chance to see what you are actually capable of.
The light and peace we seek is within. Always.
All we get to do is start the journey of unfolding into this space.
Curious what this journey within could look like? Ready to step into a new space and fully embrace more peace, calm and joy? Let's connect. Book your free 30min support session.
You're ready. This is the time. XO
Massive light and love,
For those that know me well, you know I can be head strong and stubborn. If I get an idea in my head, it's tough to change my mind. For years I carried a story that I was so "stuck on".
I was angry with my own struggles with teaching, seemingly living paycheck to paycheck each month and always holding off on vacations because it "just wasn't in the cards". My life seemed out of my control.
I blamed the hardships on "the system", how it's broken and how it's messing it up for me. Poor me. Working hard, not valued, etc, etc, and on and on. Tears shed, anger lashed out, tension in relationships, feelings of not being good enough, smart enough or the pain of asking for financial help seemingly at every turn.
But here's the thing: Although the feelings were real, my perception was based on a reality that I had created. I was just waiting for something to save me--someone, the Universe handing me something else...whatever it was, I believed the changes would be without my own engineering of it's trajectory.
Put simply -- I was waiting to be saved. The princess in the tower waiting for her prince.
I didn't believe it was all up to me.
I didn't believe I had the power.
I didn't believe I had the right to fully expand into my gifts, the life I dreamed of.
And then something shifted.
I just got sick of this story! I can pinpoint the moment (I'll save that for another post) and it was raw, real and unforgettable.
It was this feeling that there is no where else to turn but into myself and face that version of myself that believed those stories.
It was time to take back my power and to break down that princess tower I was holding myself hostage in.
It was hard. I cried, I was scared.
But I was also lighter, hopeful and excited.
There are still tough days, I still cry, I still worry from time to time, but I don't feel dread or anger the same way.
My life feels lighter. I walk with a different connection to my purpose. I am calmer and easier on myself. I don't feel like I am betraying my truth.
And, most important, I believe this is for anyone. I believe this is for you. I know it with every ounce of my being.
I've got a Spring Cleanse coming up, so if you're curious how to step into spring with a lighter load, check it out.
With massive love and light
Leanna Jane Lewis
I'm just goin' to toss them here, just to plant some thought seeds for you. I'll leave out the details for each of them, since I'll post those in the next blog. For now, I just want to share the basics.
Anchoring into the Now:
The power of meeting yourself in the present to create the change you want. Mindfulness, meditation and breath work.
Creating a safe path through our pains:
Creating what you want by healing what you no longer need. Speaking your truth, letting go of old stories.
Connecting to our Purpose:
Discovering your gifts, empowering your soul,
healing doubt and fear
Creating Goals that Fuel our Purpose:
Creating goals that “stick” because they are connected to your purpose and your natural gifts.
Sometimes sh*t happens
"Life is happening FOR us, not TO us"I am writing this as my home is literally being torn apart.
We knew something was wrong. We could sense it, smell it, feel it as a quiet voice getting louder...
"You can't keep imaging me away..so deal with me, fix me, break me down and put me back together."
We've decided, now is the time. Sure, it's winter here, cold, hard to deal with no running water, access to a toilet, we don't have the money for this right now---all the things. But it's now a non-negotiable. The choice was easy.
Maybe you know what I mean. Maybe you've gotten to a point where you can't ignore what's not working anymore and change just HAS to happen. We all hit our metephoric breaking points so that we can overhaul and rebuild. At some point, the desire is greater than the fear of change.
If you're ready to stop setting your own desires aside and to rebuild something in your life--- your relationships, your career, your inner desire to grow away from your stress triggers, whatever it is-- I promise you it won't always be a clean sweep, but it WILL feel lighter, cleaner and safer (in my case!), and it will start a series of other events that continue to lead you on your journey.
Ladies, sometimes we have to surrender to the breakdown to have the breakthrough. We need to allow ourselves to hit that place of "breakdown" before we can actually see how we can be put back together.
P.S I have two more 1:1 coaching spots left, so let's talk if you are really ready to see how we could do some beautiful inner renovations for you. I'll slot you into my calendar so we can have a free chat and support session. You never know what is possible if you don't ask. (*Book the Support Session-30mins)
Here's to a BRAND NEW home for me and amazing possibility for you.
Massive LOVE and LIGHT!
Everywhere we go, there we are. #TRUTH
And what's more, when we dig deep within ourselves we see more opportunity for growth, change, inner shifts of perspective. We start to realize that we are the ones coming to save us. We are the ones throwing the lifeline down to our soul and spirit. It's up to us.
That realization takes bravery.
But, I also know that it takes MASSIVE trust and bravery to just keep going when it gets hard.
Because it will. Because it does.
When it gets hard, its because we are often faced with parts of ourselves that we don't usually have to see--they might be parts we are ashamed of, or thought we had tucked away neatly.
The true bravery isn't just taking the first deep dive, its the willingness to keep diving and jumping in, EVEN WHEN
-we don't know how deep it is
-we don't know how it will feel
-we don't know when it will end and when we can get out
-we don't know where our life preserver is if we need it
True bravery is sinking deep into this unbreakable trust between the self and universe. It's that trust that reminds us, everything will be okay. Everything will work out. Everything is happening and unfolding just the way it's meant to be.
And if you can just keep showing up everyday, even when it's hard--your brave soul will take you places you may not have dreamed of.
You've got this, my love.
You've got it deep in your soul.
You're strong, radiant and brilliant in your own right--no less than the sun, the moon, the stars. You have a right to be here, to be brave and to own and share your gifts with the world.
Leanna Jane Lewis ditched the paint and playdough centre in her kindergarten classroom for some more adventures as a school teacher turned yogi mentor and coach. Just like kids, adults need quiet time too. We all need to feel playful and peaceful in our lives.